Its terrifying to think that after investing a year and a half of my life with someone, with trust, love and every other good feeling possible, that it might all be over. Its so sudden, so unexpected. The worst part about all of this is that I can have no influence in the decision. Its all him. He does not know what he wants, feels like he is being torn in 37 different directions. He never has opinions or obvious emotions about our relationship and today he cried. He cried for a split second, told me he did not know what he wanted any more, pulled the its not you its me and I need some time, and then left for work. Its insane how ten minutes of the day can absolutely crush every thing inside you. I love this man with every single thing inside me, he is my everything. For the first time in my life I have felt 100% sure with where I was going. I have been so sure for so long that this was the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with. Now I am just sitting here in pieces waiting for his 8 hour work shift to be over so we can “talk more”. I hope Im wrong. I hope this can all be fixed and I hope that this is just a bump in the road. Please, let it just be a bump in the road. Please.
