December 2008
12 posts
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter...”
It is what it is;
Sometimes I seem to let myself get wrapped up in the difficulties that life presents me with and its hard to remember that life is not always going to be a walk in the park. As happy as I try to be, it seems as if when one thing is going the best it ever could possibly be, five other things proceed to crumble beneath me. I am so blessed to have Kegan and I can honestly say that for the first time...
next tattoo!
After researching for awhile and thinking about different ideas I have decided that I want to get two sparrows on my left shoulder.
Sparrows stand for freedom, loyalty, eternity, and luck. They are also known for traveling great distances, but always returning home. Also, back in ancient egypt they were associated with the stars and believed that they caught the souls of those who have passed....
Want the cold hard truth?
Our time is short…
After what I have gone through, most would think its a cynical statement. Let me be the first to tell you, its not. Its the furthest thing from actually. You don’t know when you could be waking up for the last time. Even though that might be scary to think about, its the honest truth. I’m glad that I have realized this, I have taken life for granted for so...
why on earth did it feel like I just got punched in the stomach when I found out he has a new girlfriend.
I really should not care. FUCKKKKKKKK:/
Heres to making the best out of things;
to the 12 hour trip home from school that ended up being kind of fun, that brought leah and I closer, and that made me thankful for being alive,
to coming home to a beautiful house with amazing parents that I could not be more thankful for but to realizing my heart is now in ellensburg,
to having my best friend not say a word to me upon coming home, but to that making me realize who my real best...
what have I gotten myself into;
Being home sucks. Why did I let my heart get into a relationship right before break? It has been 3 days and Im going insane. I probably should not miss him this much. What sucks even more then him just being 5 hours away is that the passes are terrible so I most likely wont even be able to visit him…and he does not have cell service at his house so that means not even being able to text him....
:/
Break starts tomorrow and I actually am going home for almost a month. I really dont know how I feel about this, to be honest Im pretty scared. I have made my life here, with the people here and everything else here. I feel like I have nothing back home other than my parents, who dont get me wrong I am super excited to see, but I just am not ready. I have not felt home sick once since I have been...
“I am coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith,...”
Lets give it another go;
It feels so weird to be in a relationship again, weird to be taken on dates again. It’s been so long since I have been in an actual normal relationship that I almost don’t know what to do with myself now that I’m in one again. I could not be one bit happier, but to be honest I’m horrified. Completely horrified. I’m afraid to fall in love again or to put my whole heart into something. Every time I...